job-hunting SUCKS. this is second attempt so i really know it SUCKS. it's so miserable going from place to place, clutching some tattered and torn piece of classifieds newspapers close to the chest as if it were a life buoy, hope slowly corroded away by sinking despair, treading the streets lost while the gloomy skies decides that today is your 'why does it always rain on me' day. i got home with red teary eyes, feeling like a loser once more.
shit the companies who tries to make a scam out of every hopeful applicant. shit you who made me run in the rain, only to wait for an hour for the interview. shit you who told me that i am very fortunate to be shortlisted for the interview and made me sit through a 45min cannot-speak-proper-english talk and find out that it is all a big whole commission-thing scam.
why must these companies be so mean! why must they be so underhanded! cant they reveal details of the job over the phone instead of wasting each other's time travelling and waiting, only to reject it in the end...?!
having a job is so difficult. finding a good one is already hell. why do all the good lobangs not come to me? why? Why? WHY?!!
ok. enough toxins expelled. i hope.
anyway it was great catching up with dawn today. =) she makes this whole ordeal more endurable and running in the rain fun (though i know u hate running in the rain, haha!). it was funny when we took out the classifieds and started calling up companies while waiting for the talk to start and being ushered out as the agent said it was rude to enquire about other jobs when we are among the other job applicants. only after dawn left, i started to get depressed thinking about money and jobs as i made my way home, wasted and penniless (wiped out my ezlink just travelling).
i wish school could start soon. this is the first u hear of me wishing for school to start. i just dont want to be a part of this money-minded, u-eat-me-i-eat-you corporate world. i dont want to lose myself worrying about something so insignificant as money, yet i find myself just helplessly lost in this very thing i find despicable. :(
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