in a rut

thankful for gabrielle to listen to me and share feelings, to come to school an hour earlier to use her guild membership discount to get me the UWA hoodie. am quite proud of my hoodie, feel like i am finally part of the caucasian college culture... even though it's freaking expensive for a nondescript mass-produced fleece thingy with embroided huge ass logo.

thankful also for dawnie dear for lunch and a heartfelt chat, to know that someone could spot out someone who would disappoint me from a short chance meeting. it's that instinctive protective feeling that cannot be easily described. :)

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i don't know why i feel like my past is reenacting itself, albeit with different characters and variation to the plot... like an unresolved issue that will haunt me till i learn the correct way to know how to trust somebody,

especially if it's someone i love,

who wants to hang out and watch movies with my enemy.