security blanket

today's the day that i finally met all the zone people people after 6 months of not seeing each other. make that half a year of not facing people whom i have had bad experiences with.

suds was cute and put into description those i conveniently labelled as "enemies" to be my sea anemones.

what would i do without him?

he comforted me by cajoling around with the idea of bashing people up for me (IN HUMOUR OF COURSE), he held me close in his arms and made me feel like im in good hands. he didnt bow to the pressures from faith teasing him to marry me, instead saying that he would marry me because he loves me and not for some residency statuses, touching me with that simple piece of truth so succinct in that moment.

and while everyone is impressed with him and thus increasing my pressure and fear of losing him one day and losing face, he reassures me that he never intends for us to be apart. he tells me that he feels selfish and scared that he would be robbing me away from all the friends who love me but he still wants to do it anyway because he loves me too much to let me go....

i am happy that sis angela thinks that he's a keeper. :)

i am grateful that my dad didnt give me a hard time when he came over to use the internet for awhile and that chloe likes this gorgor enough to let him carry her around.

chloe and me in our gum boots!

i am enlightened when my mum says that "it's not your dad marrying your boyfriend, why you so scared that your dad will not approve?" and when it comes to being scared of marriages when couples quarrel: "even your own teeth will bite your tongue! quarrels are normal! nothing to be scared about!"

i am not so secretly delighted that suds would write things like "every single moment without you is like a moment wasted" when i am checking his profile expecting him to be already asleep. LOL! i wont be writing all these mushy things on my wall because i am a conservative asian auntie and i dont like to be showy or end up looking silly....but i like to hear things from him like that. hehe.

i feel like the messy things regarding my stay in perth would turn out alright despite all the tedious paperwork scares and impossibilities.

im just writing all these to remind myself when the going gets tough and if i ever do get bitter and unappreciative.

hopelessly in love with that boy right now.