weird day

following the events on the weekend, my monday was pretty weird. mondays usually turn out great for me since there's the launch of new items on pet society and i start off with a light school week.

however..

i began the talks with suds over him "pushing" me to alan, saying that he invited me to their house, i am his guest, that he feels bad that i went out with him on the walk to the park instead of staying to play monopoly deal with alan, and i should go out with alan more, coz even though he knows that alan may say it's ok he still thinks it's not ok...

i felt a little like a piece of object pushed around between the boys, not having the freedom to choose who i want to hang out with, like i'm some kind of vietnamese bride.

assholes.

carlos seems really cold. he's like a huuuge chunk of frozen meat that takes a long time to warm up, and it's kinda difficult to get his honest opinion when he's a gentleman like that. gentlemen can't throw fits or appear emotional. i am feeling guilty for not accounting for something that dont really seem to hold me accountable for and i think i owe explanations for what people would perceive of jerome.

ok got to run.