arghh

a few minutes ago i got into this rather intense mind-battle with my manager. almost going to want to break into on the verge of tears gahh.

see theres this client we have that has NO MONEY to pay for any materials etc except having a few headsets to give away for its campaign and i talked about having posters in school etc and she starts to be so agitated and raised her voice about "i told you to look at media partners but why havent you look? I told you that ***** has no money no money! where are you going to find money to do all these?"

hate being shouted at-- really shouting is not doing any good. i must learn to be better at keeping frustrations than her.

i have started to realise that my manager sometimes misses some things in her ears sometimes. and she only spot mistakes and make lots of edits after every draft done. like the expenses sheet- do once, got corrected and resubmitted, corrected AGAIN on other aspects and resubmit- a few cycles of it to finally get it done. she cannot at one go finish up.

i wonder what is the sang kai that people often talk about in their internships? really i prefer to do and am better at all the admin work. i dont like the whole doing all the proposals and getting negative feedback and then later editting and later having to correct yet another fault with it.

it makes me feel like my manager is trying to waste my time as an intern...since i'm paid lowly anyway.

today met with client from an events company to do with an eco exhibition. rode on a taxi to get there and i felt important and all, but it was compromised by the feeling that we are super unprepared for the meeting. the client was expecting us to have a PR proposal ready already and it was damm difficult going around the questions, firing a question at a question asked instead of giving an answer. it was quite awkward and i feel like walking out of it. my manager's being quite unhappy at the person who spoke to us saying that the person doesnt know what she wants etc. but i felt that because she being a customer, has the right to not tell us what she wants and give us a hard time.

my manager saw me logged on to facebook and saw the logged out of yoville page. -___- sian. i feel like my maid who got caught watching tv.