things not to be grateful for

• stupid guys. i think alvin is moving on to stalk debbie in addition to stalking almost all the people in the cell group! "how is australia?" bahhh trying to pick up girls from MY wall somemore. fail. at least do it discreetly
• being pangsei-ed. no more trying to organize. im getting the feeling im more enthu than anyone combined
  
• miser dad who wants me to study hard but now i dont have the textbook to study for saturday's paper- how to study like that
• forgetful people who promised me to call but never did
  
• old men on the pavements who cannot hear the ringing of my bell even after countless times and daring to shoot me that annoyed look when i voiced "give way" loudly- listen to loud mp3 too much is it?
• having no musical instruments to allow me to relieve emoness after having no friends i could call
• inefficiency sucks to the core
  

i have become to be too selfless. i should learn to be more selfish but i dont even know how to begin it with.

i think my past hurts and disappointments makes it really difficult for me to move on and allow anybody to cheer me up and love. it makes me see all the flaws in people and cause me to be too tired to even try.

how now brown cow what to do now

why isnt my aunt spam-calling me these days?