on that day i did the PS post, i went to kelvin's house to wash plates and a slave to art, after handing up my assignment. the next day i had no school but went down to discuss my project with a friend till 6+ and then down to buy beads at arab street but discovered it was closed and got pissed off, especially when meeting a group of sec school girls who talk really loudly and go "oh my god" at EVERYTHING... like "OH MY GOD COME AND SEE THIS BANNER" "OH MY GOD LOOK AT HER SHE'S SO DUMB SHE DIDNT blabla bla". why must their life be so attention-seeking and so uncouth. and i was hungry and feeling lonely to run errands on my own. next day went to school, ponned the second half and got to the resurrection: zoe conference thing to present my shoe design workshop! and was freaking sleepy with 3 hours of sleep, but my students are lovely people so it makes everything soooo worthwhile.
am feeling regretful for not getting more pictures, especially those of their shoe designs, though i have like 4 pairs with me now coz i havent had the chance to return their shoes. but sister angela took many pictures after that so i hope she would upload them or something!! i just added her! and she's really nice.
one thing about church people is that theyre soooo encouraging, really to the max, till the point i feel really black sheep of the family most times, coz i cant find nice things to say sometimes and feel betrayed to myself if i say something i dont believe in!
the workshop was about having to have something "die" in order for the miracles of resurrection to happen. not the easiest topic to comprehend but it works like: "in order for a seed to grow and display its potential, it has to die first" and about giving up something that is of "you" in order for God to take over and take charge. all these are really philosophical and it takes time to digest!!
today i got kinda upset with this email thing on facebook to do with church-goers not being able to turn up for events and i felt really like unfair to be charged at this way. going through the lengths to reply with a lengty sms stating that it's not good to confront people through facebook messages, but in the end received a REPLY ON FACEBOOK ITSELF SAYING THAT I RECEIVED YOUR SMS and thought i would reply u here. omg,..... thanks for being tactful. i feel like im going to burst with all that bday celebrations on saturdays.. why saturdays... feel like a badass even though i dont mean to at all and hate to explain to one party or another why i cant go for this go for that etc and feeling forced to attend events that was not mean to be that way in the first place. yes i am really feeling forced to go to church and to please the non-church-goers at the same time.
i wished i didnt have my birthday party in the first place, then i wont feel compelled to go to others in order to "return favours". its that bad.
annoyed to the core.
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