j a n e t

so sorry for the lack of updates... though i dont think i should apologise.. but anyway now i finally understand why people cant update everyday. jamie used to say no pictures and all words so dont want to bore her readers. sometimes i get the feeling too, yesterday was one of those days.

sometimes my life's full of negativities. although this blog is primarily my venting outlet for frustrations and my toxic-cleanser, i have to worry what people would think of me. each word has to be crafted in such a way that you know, at least i look good and justified for every wrong doing.

and there is the pressure. i always feel that everybody knows something about me that i dont know, and i always always wonder so much about it. what is it that i dont know! there's this look people give me, and i swear (lightly) that i am NOT thinking too much. i wish i can understand why they react the way they do, but i just got to live with it.

feel like a mental patient.

ohwell got to live with it.

TODAY PICTURE POST:

woke up to find Hammie The Polar Bear (her full name) so cute!

snuggled into a huge fur ball.
anyway it's really SKINNIER now!!! dawn! u should like come over and feel it. it's so much skinnier than last time, and im kinda worried. i really hope it wont die on me. :(

you know i was like bragging to some people that im going to the NDP.. until this morning my mother found out that the tickets were to the NDP at PADANG. freakin PADANG!!!!!! not the floating parade lah!! i was sooooo omgz where to put my face man. dont even feel like going already.

but went anyway.

city hall was sooooooooo crowded. the mrt station was congested and the PA system kep replaying.. "the mrt station is crowded" and people were behaving like ignorant cows and block the way. really inconsiderate.

anyway saw so many people wearing red, i feel like im in a Singtel advertisement or something.
my pseudo tattoos.
NDP at padang sucked. coz it drizzled, which looks like it was seriously going to pour, then my family decided to leave. and the people stopped us and wrestled the bags away from those leavers including us. like take those bags by force. which was disgusting. people who wanted to get souvneirs and own memory keepsake of this parade were sorely disappointed. their reason: they need to keep those things that people can wave in the air. i dont understand why they had to collect EVERYTHING including the bag (the only thing worth keeping) and the half-drunk water bottle and the coupons or whatever. -_- and they really force-handled us, including my old grandfather who came all the way from malaysia to attend this. but whatever, i dont see the need to make ourselves so pathetic. LIKE them.

even my mum who was usually the peacemaker remarked afterwards that i should rub the tattoos off my face and give them back like "you want everything back? you really want?!??!! HERE YOU GO AND GET LOST!!!!" anyway they didnt snatch the cap out of my head and i forgot to throw it at them, so i actually got away with some stuff from the NDP haha.

this is a NDP photo taken by me for debbie!! happy national day debbie!
ohman i think it should read OR ELSE: No debbies but i overwrote it so i cant edit already! sorry!!!

LASTLY!! for the materialistic indulgence of the day...

fendi baguette

i rather love the concept of the bag when it came out in the magazines. alittle weird like why must i pay to design my own bag but it's always so fun to see how people design their own and horrify it. guess at least it's a branded piece of canvas and no one can refute your own design since beauty is in the eyes of beholder.

though the picture is taken amateurishly, it feels like the bag is realistically right in front of me, hohoho.i like this! i remember how the designer Carrie Chau described it: "the many ways a man can try to win a girl and the many ways a girl can do to satisfy her own vanity" something along that line.
you may view other designs here which was the Fendi 10+ exhibition earlier held in May.



well im so glad i got something like that to call of my own!! HAAHA at least it's not double F logo... i notice a trend here. why am i always getting channel 2.45 and fandi bags.

so happy that i could sketch it out!

IT MATERIALIZES!!!!!!

ten-ten-ten-ten!!!!

now debbie and i can swing our handphones all around like mad women. oh and we wanted to go geylang and walk funny and watch the ahpeks' reactions.. hahahhaha.

so pretty. :) maybe i shall paint it when it gets dirty someday! HOOOO!! :D