j a n e t

/edit: not really true--as time comes to tell?


"sweet about me, nothing's sweet about me, yeah"


i hate projects. it got me into this sian-to-max mood.

the whole MTD project is in a mess and i just dont know what the question wants or how to go about. :(

im dreading this whole project. never in my life of Project Works, secondary school projects, other module projects have i encountered one that makes me want to throw the white flag altogether. im like counting and debating whether i can give a slip-shod work and scrap through a PASS.

and then, being in the race alone sucks. instead of inspiring or motivating me, my project mates are losing my inspiration and drive. i just dont want to commit and feel like im running the race alone. i hate feeling like the bossy one. i gave my command and send necessary emails out, and im ignored.

ok i must give credit to stella the only member who was good-natured and cooperative.

the rest are clever you know. clever at avoiding what to do. coz it's very easy to claim credits for a project that is shared together. so should i sweat it out and fight fight fight? or should i complain till the cows come home.

hey i cant help myself, so how am supposed to help you! everyone's supposed to try to figure something, not i figuring and then teaching you. if not, i could have done it myself? and when teacher asked do you have any questions, i wish you to ask the question you asked me, "what do i type in the google search ah?" THAT was beautiful i tell you.

i think even reading the question got you lost. i fret about the question till i have memorised it. and then you ask me, "what was the project's question ah?" and then you write it down into your pretty little notebook.

the time you took to do your hair, your nails, was probably more than the time you took to think over the question.

yet you were kind and friendly, so that makes it hard for me to tell you off and chase you to do something in the project.

projects ruin friendships.
SUCKS la.