wiwt

went shopping alone after class today. stressed about how i have been sleeping at like 5am and waking up late and my bad bad bad time management skills...

felt weird dressed this way? i can't get what people think of this outfit. like, do they think that i am acting-rich, or trying to get attention, or is my jacket over-sized, or they wish they have a jacket like mine??? it just boggles my head............im like a bimbotic bird but i mean what i said in the most sincerest way.

lol i was walking out of my room in this when suds made me wear a jacket coz he said it will be cold.

pleats! :D

spent quite an amount of time at cotton on. tried this on but sadly it was $5 so i didn't get it.

bought 3 pairs of shorts in different colours, 10 accessories, a cobra-print tank.

also went for dance practice for the easter show on sunday. i think i am not cut out for dancing; ought to join the choir next time round.

really disappointed in the sophia/lily/jo/grace's household. i went there to get picked up for service, and lily pointed out to me my belongings from the busselton day (4 months back)-- i left the things in their car in a hurry when i went home. i was utterly shocked to find my stuff-- i totally forgot about them. my swimsuit that was dipped in the salt water, was just left wet and unwashed since that day in a tied up plastic bag, and my towel was carelessly strewn and had some really bad musty smell to it now.

oh gosh i cannot describe how bad i felt. it's like, THIS is the way i would treat somebody i hate. i would not even bother to text, or tell them in face even though i see them every week for 2 days, that their belongings are with me. i would not even feel bad enough to try washing it and drying them up.

sure, maybe i am scatter-brained and i need to be taught a lesson. but why test me in that way? why not throw my things away and maybe i think i will continue liking you the way i do. i was sure that our friendship was worth more than a simple text message, or an oblivion lie like 'oh gosh i just found your stuff from some time ago. it may be rotting oh no do you want to collect them today?', or perhaps some little detergent.

and to imagine how many people from church have walked in and out through that doorway and looking at my dress just laid by the door side.

i wish to curse really. i think there is something wrong with me.

:'(