our first yr anniversary dinner

IM FEELING SO BAD THAT IT'S OUR FIRST YEAR ANNIVERSARY DINNER BUT I WAS SO OBSESSED W TAKING PICTURES ONLY OF MYSELF!

promise im not that much of a vainpot...... i just like to commemorate important and exciting stuff and suds doesn't have that much of the same aspiration that i do and can be pretty boring on blogs sometimes.

our one year anniversary was slightly extravagant as we thought that we would not be seeing each other for both christmas and our first year anniversary, like -gasp!- how could anyone miss their first year anniversary right? turned out we did miss it, him in melbourne while i was in perth. but oh well thats not the point!

i was pretty thrilled that day that my boyfriend took me out to a very super fancy place for dinner that night. see this? ---> ~~~~~~ those are my arms wobbling in sheer delight.

my attempt at beautifying myself that day kinda failed coz he was in a hurry to take us out.

tried to do the glittery smoky eyes shebang thing but it was kinda like uneven and blotchy, sigh. i had lip gloss on too.

i really liked my hair that day though. i was watching Lipstick Jungle and was inspired by Victory Ford's hair. i couldnt find the original picture that inspired me and it goes like a braid from the bottom side section, and goes up into a messy, teased up bun.

Lindsay Price is pretty isnt she!

yup so we got to fremantle and meant to go to Little Creatures but it was full of people and we went to Char Char Bull instead.

not forgetting to take a picture by the ferris wheel that was set up not too long ago! ^-^

i had lamb shanks, which was huuuuge but turned out to be quite big-boned with little flesh

oops closed-eye shot sorry suds!

suds insisted on me getting an alcoholic drink despite the price of it. so i had my mojito!

table napkin over my dress makes it look like i have a new dress!

i got pretty drunk on that drink #$%^& and my makeup was quite horrid as my face was flushed red. i believe suds has the pictorial evidence somewhere but it's an awful sight so it better not see the light of the day....

i was conscious enough to have ice cream though! hehehe. baskin robbins rocky road :) felt as if we're always with rocks and stones along the course of courtship.

suds looking handsome in the haircut i gave him. i believe it's called a wonk or something but i googled the term and it didn't seem right. basically it's a hairstyle with a pretty bare fringe like those that middle-eastern types of ah bengs would fashion.

i got drunk enough to humour suds in climbing up this huge platform thingy and pose with this obscene totem rusted tin statue that i have never noticed in fremantle before...

hahaha i threatened suds that this would be a secret kept between only both of us but i guess the delay in time that i have posted this entry has caused the severity of this picture to be lightened. pretty funny now.

well it's been a year, and a little bit more, that we have both been together now and i wanted to make sure this entry would be a little more than a dinner but of how much i really love this man Sureiyan Hardjo.

sometimes i look at him and then there are always days when i just space out, and there is this sense of unfamiliarity, like i am looking at a stranger........... like i can't get used to him and how, if ever i get into an accident and suffer amnesia, he's not a face that i can remember in my mind, but feel in my heart.... (watched too much boys over flower oopsie)

i feel like i can bear everything to him. with him i don't feel like i am crushing him like how i am always used to back in singapore, yet i can't help feeling so heartbroken whenever i think about how many girls he could possibly charm their stockings off and how he had his lost loves etc who are prettier and way better than me. i think about what if he might regret falling for such a silly, unmotivated weirdo like me and not other proper girls with boobies and healthy hair growth.

yet unlike other guys who deem it their upper hand to be "above" their girlfriends, he always makes me feel like im the only girl in the world-- always telling me that i am beautiful without me asking, never ranking my pretty friends, and that i am sexy when i am wearing raggy clothes with tangly birdnest-style hair. i never tell him that he is handsome and have been in all honesty been really blunt sometimes, yet he never feels the need to retaliate, like the vengeful nature of me would.

he's got so much love for me that i don't get sometimes.

hahaha. i always compare ourselves to cat and dog.

i'm like the lazy and vain cat, while he's the all loving dog. i claw him whenever i can while he chooses to lick me (quite literally). i like to eat fish and seafood, while he's more into beef, red meat and sometimes leftover food. he likes to cuddle me into difficult contortions, and i feel so physically twisted i would struggle out almost 10 seconds immediately into some position more comfortable......while he just likes to lean on me, touch me, feel me up, rest on me whenever we're watching tv.

its so easy to tempt him with food and cuddles and stuff while it probably takes like money and dresses for me to do something. yupppp. he likes it whenever i play it up like a vamp so i got pretty good practice for that ahhahah. i'm sorry that it's TMI but it's hilarious whenever i think about it. i remember how when we dated initially and i always worry about what to talk about when we're lying there after a whole day spend together, then he wrestled me again, and i shrieked out like the dramatic chinese damsel-in-distress, "bu yao~! bu yao~!" and he would be like, "i'm so turned on! could u do it again?"

SILLY BEANS RIGHT?!

before those times when we were dating and getting to know each other (mainly more of trying to decipher what each other is saying), he would always be happy to do things for me, saying that it makes him really happy when i am happy, and that he would enjoy trying to make me happy in that case.

he thinks the world of me even though i am a little small fry and am pretty selfish, calculative, stingy and miserable all the time...... i wonder, what deadly love potion has he digested, to be so blindingly in love with me all the time.

and i am in love with him. i want to follow him whenever he goes no matter how much it takes, bear him little hardjos because he kisses me in front of the shocked pastor's kids, telling me how good i am with children and how he would make his children study hard... i want to be his one and only masseur, his "chinese doctor" with maozedong pills and his angelic-girlfriend when outside and naughty girl at home character, his caretaker whenever he is ill, and self-appointed fashion stylist on the budget.

i am so thankful for him that one more blog entry won't suffice to describe the magnitude of my admiration for him....

to our one year anniversary and more! i love you very much suds. :)