midwk blues

had a great faith-buildup during bible study just now. Got a vision of interning at vogue magazine...

Work was tiring, had not have a proper lunch break for 2 days, relying on people to tabao for me.quite a few people came up to tell me that it must be difficult to pack all the stuff alone while all the other departments have many people packing.

I was frustrated when i got home to see the playdoh that i bought for chloe taken out of the container, carelessly left on the bed, all hardened and cracked...really pissed off to see hard earned money go to waste like that. Fed up with the maid who is so obsessed with her boyfriend.

I work soooo hard.

I sleep at least 2hours later than her, wake up early in the morning while she is still sleeping, plus she gets afternoon nap whenever my niece sleeps.

It's not fair. It's really frustrating. I have to hide in the toilet, sit next to the toilet bowl, tolerate other people farting and the loud flushing sounds in order to catch a few precious winks of rest, because i am that tired. I don't like to come home to see a sister being a good-for-nothing, clubbing like her life depended on it, calling home after working for 6 hours to find out my sister havent woke up yet...and to see the maid thinking that my money is like rainwater during monsoon season, not bothering to do a simple task like keeping the playdoh into the container. She doesn't know how luxurious i think playdoh is, how i wished i had all the playdoh to play with when i was a child, don't know how long i took to think over whether i should purchase the playdoh when it was on sale, doesn't know how to take care of others' things, being such a lousy steward of my hardearned money.

I hate this. I hate hate hate hate ungrateful unappreciative people, who finds it only necessary for the entire world to serve them like they're some handicapped and disabled people.

Just so angry now. pissed off!!!!!