baptism

i am about to get baptised in 8 hours time!

baptizo= dipping into water and seeing a change after.

i feel a little like a bride now, getting ready for my wedding. having to wear white, having everyone to celebrate with me, having a new name (though not a new surname)... it's like a big day i never expect. feeling a little jittery and panicky coz i have not prepared much for it!

i totally didnt invite like everybody to attend, but at least my parents are, for now. i havent even decide whats my "wedding gown" going to be! i havent even hint to jamie what she could bless me for my baptism. totally not prepared.

and my aunt's in USA so she can't watch me. i know she might be upset having missed out my baptism. feel very bad about it! and i wished the 2 jons could join us too.

my mum is not very pleased when i told her...she said "why not you tell me you are getting married tomorrow?" coz she feels that i made a huge decision without informing her. i never knew she would actually care about a ceremonial thing when i have been going to church for 7 years already.

7 years has been quite a while. the dating period sees it in minor fall-outs, tears, talks, revelations, stagnancy, passionate ardour, confusion...tomorrow my old self will die to sin and i will be born again with God's grace to overcome the control of sin over my life.

thank you for being there thick and thin, constantly reminding me of your love for me. when i was unfaithful you pined for me, you waited for me and you take me in. you showed me how i can be a greater me by being lesser of myself.

heehee 7 years itch..... to get baptised! i wont be baptised a second time. hope the whole thing will be so special tomorrow.

i dont need doves, but maybe a rainbow? :D