right now im damm irritated with egoistic guys. :( i think many would feel that being loved is a good thing, but it is agonizing! tormenting me really. i think i am starting to see reflections of me when i used to crush on people real hard in the past. :( i am horrible!
also theres this stupid game on facebook that i play, it's called sorority life. DAMM STUPID dont play ok. then i got hooked on it coz i hate being "attacked" and i think it really got the angsty side of me out. it reminds me of the communications research project i am doing which discusses about gaming violence. -_-
then i helped alvin to edit this essay thing he wants to submit to school and OMG it feels like lower secondary school essay and it's damm long and crappy somemore. :( plus i am soooo irritated by the fact that i think i'm too kind or nice to some guys hence they think i like them or trying hard to please them or something. :(
it's part of my nature to help but sometimes the consequences of helping is like, totally not worth even though i want to. arghhhh.
and blogger is shitty now!!! i tried so many times to upload this birthday photo but cannot work. :( damm sian! each time i upload i keep thinking of the space it might try to take up by mistake and i get sooo indignant and upset.
ahhhh what is wrong with me.
scolded chloe today and she gave me this face as if she was so contrite and going to cry any minute but holding back her tears. as if she were in shock and she knows she's in the wrong. it's my first time seeing her like this and i was awww yi yi dont mean to scold you but you cannot eat the paper! held the stunned baby who didnt hug me back to my father where she was also kinda quiet and unmoving.
also today evening i "race-cycled" with some china men today and it was exhilarating. ha!
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