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schiz-o-phre-ni-a

1. a severe mental disorder characterized by some, but not necessarily all, of the following features: emotional blunting, intellectual deterioration, social isolation, disorganized speech and behavior, delusions, and hallucinations.
2. a state characterized by the coexistence of contradictory or incompatible elements.

schizophrenia is one of the modern words that people like to use these days. it is easy to see why, coz it is a medical (proven) behaviour that people can now use to put the blame for certain acts they have done, plus it sounds cool. like schizzzzz- oh! phrey~ nia!!! it has that different elements of nice-to-pronunce-words. i also like the word "innuendo", "rendevous" and probably some others that i cannot remember now.

i do think that to some extent, i am schizophrenic. i can be quite unintellectual sometimes and also have extreme emotional swings. then sometimes i feel like being unsocial and quit msn for long periods. sometimes my entries sound so happy and ah-lian, sometimes it sounds like i am a professor trying to type a theoretical analysis, like now.

anyway!!! i am now employed, though for how long i am not sure. :( i work at wendy's workplace doing calls. not those harassment kind of calls. again, it's for another company dealing with IT solutions products. my previous workplace was to make calls for this publication on computing and IT.

i think my boss likes me coz i am now quite proficient in making calls. thanks to my previous workplace~!! oh muacks muacks!

i was kinda turned off by my co-worker though. i dont know if i will continue seeing him but he's totally ugh. he was ungentlemanly, coz he was the one who first wanted the harder project which pays higher, then afterwards when he found out he was not up to standards, wanted my job and kept saying "your job is much easier loh..." then he wanted my advice but dont seem happy when i point out his mistakes. and he only desires to improve himself marginally, like "can already not?? i still think i sound ok what." also he keeps harping on and on and on about the instability of the job "i thought this job is like fixed already.. (NO IT'S NOT. NO JOBS ARE FIXED hello?) and i already counted the money for my expenses.. i wanted to spend for my trips (WOW IMPORTANT) and my 21st birthday (GIVES ME THAT SPECIAL LOOK) and i even rejected this job that will hire me for 2 months, coz i thought this one the pay higher" then i told him it's not good to count chickens before eggs hatches but he kept continuing this subject like omg. my saliva is free is it?? and i know money is important, i need money myself too, why do you think i work, even at the risk of my study break?

lastly, he asks what school i am from, "oh private school ah?" then he gave that face like he's better than me and stopped asking. I CANNOT STAND PEOPLE WHO GO "PRIVATE SCHOOL AH" THEN HAVE NOTHING TO SAY. it feels like private school is a social stigma and i hate it. for example i know zhinian was thanking God in her blog that she was able not to go to a private school. -roll eyeballs- and the other time i went to Runqian's bday party, the teacher there also had nothing to say after i said "it's a private school, SMa", like "oh." and then he just walked off like that. talk about being RUDE!! back to topic, my co-worker afterwards asked me "which poly or... you came from???" then i said "JC" as if it's like my redeeming factor. argh. education is so competitive here, sucks.

i am going to mug for my media law ethics paper now.