first day of sch

and i walked into the wrong class.. and then there was NICHOLAS in my class....!!! shit i tell you. bad luck... doomed. but when asked by this guy what is it about him that i dont like, i cant really remember, like, i cannot conjure up those very intense feelings of hatred anymore. my friends have made him like this joke book kinda character, distant and well, funny. i still dont wish to see him or worse, sit near him. i hope he doesnt create any more trouble!

next was that my teacher is a freaking BUTCH!!! i was so distracted by the tone of voice, like trying to sound so deep, masculine and all the whole, really unnatural. she had this crew cut. and she kept refering to her teaching notes...! hate it when teachers do that. and sometimes she likes to wave her arms about but all i could notice is her (what did she do to her...?!) boobs and it is super sian. and she narrowed me to answer a question of hers.. "that girl in PINK!" like pink is an offensive colour..as if it were neon like that! wahlao then i realised the whole class seemed to be monotony shades. gah!

so fyi for burpeez, in this Media Law Ethics class there is cb girl and green specs guy; vtay and bryan; pris fandi hilwa mariah; fat bigsized guys from print news1 but no handsome china guy (pearl, so sad!)... that's about all.

went to ICA to get my passport done. pretty easy to do! :D and i like my passport picture coz it's not as ugly as my previous one. thing now is, the passport is really clean with no chops inside and i am itching for some stamps to be in it!!!! but now i cant sneak off with the passport without my dad knowing that i sneak off! SHUCKS. but it's all biometric now so i wonder if i dont have to get chopped in it.

baby fell ill and coughed badly. can u imagine her little lungs being so ticklish and then coughing till the whole body shook so badly. i dont understand why some people, ie sister, LIKES to fall sick and implicate matters. it's like her hobby you know? "oh i cant take care of baby because i am sick....." and refusing to drink water and eat vegetables and fruits while she keeps complaining and complaining and that's the only advice we give her, which doesnt bother to obey at all! have you ever met weird people like her?

i feel like a MOTHER to child thats not mine! somewhat like wear green cap? it makes me feel very no life taking care of her baby while she can go out and cavort with her bf and being ordered around feels like a MAID as well, "u take care of the baby when the maid goes and eat", "i wish u stay home more often to take care of the baby because i cannot trust the maid"- mum. and then my mum just likes to nag so much about my stuff i just wished i could move out and then they can all suffocate each other.

now im typing my stuff in the dark with the light borrowed from the corridor outside the house, coz my mum nags that my dad would nagged about me wasting the electricity. wow. am i worse than maids in like other households? i should do this repeatedly until my dad finds out and pities me or something. why does he want his daughter to be as blind as a bat? doesnt he know that the light from the computer is NOT sufficient enough?

feeling very unloved and lonely. i missed having real friends in classes. now i have none except on fridays. i need to find a job and occupy myself. need a job need a job.