j a n e t

i had a bad time looking forward to today's event. first it was on-off-on-off with the weiniangniang and kelvin. the previous night it was the "everyone contribute $7 ok..." email that got me in a funk because i felt kinda dry worrying about everything and then having to even pay $$ to make myself suffer. i. dont. like. being. sacrificial. lamb...

there are some people who are anal because they are meant for greater things. (ie. little details maketh the great) i am anal over little things, that makes me a bad kinda anal person. i just dont feel cut out for certain things. to explain the previous blog entry, the picture i drew below was "the road is long; the valley is deep; the ocean's wide in front of me.."..

during that point, i didnt feel like God has saved the day yet.

thank God today that weiliang and kelvin came..!!!

thank God it didnt rain even though it has rained everyday (i checked!!!) so i am happy. it seems like God heard the prayers.

thank God alvin's brother has moved to the general ward!!

thank God the day ended in a happy note and the fondue wasnt screwed up!!

thank God for supportive people hahah even though i felt really murderous at different points and felt like quitting everything and just lock myself at home. my aunt for helping out to deliver food. my mum for letting me go and then helping me get my mess tin and cups and water bottle. diana for not messaging stress-fierce-messages to me and being very supportive. weiliang for being weiliang. kelvin for being a good sport and zai at thinking up cheers and playing games (especially that mass game) even when he was always self-deprecating and making me think he sure going to be wet blanket. jamie for being encouraging and not disciplinarian even at times when i am a sulky complain-queen and feeling very bad about myself. i think i would have just faint for being the only negative person but you were being level-headed and willing to indulge in my biased bashing of people so thank you...! debbie for calling me many times to see where i am and sharing fruit punch with me! and joseph did a great job as the gamemaster and allowed me to slack. ho ho ho!!!

and to prayers made unbeknowst to me, thank you.

i just saw bro darren's facebook status which was some time ago as "darren showtime!" haha didnt think anyone was going to be supportive of a mere 1.5min rather cui-ed pussycat doll dance... so i was a little touched by that gesture. :)

i am tearing a little right now ok this is a little lame. buaiz!