j a n e t

hello kitty! on an xray!

it really sucks. to find out that my dad bought one of those AWFUL paintings at the vegetarian dinner, and then to hear him complaining not to use so much electricity, not to spend so much money, that he doesnt want to sponsor me to australia to study, and that he doesnt know i skipped 1 hour of classes once just to earn money for my upkeep. and then he nags and nags about that i shouldnt tithe since he says i havent earn my own money and i shouldnt give to charity.

i dont really care about how i should be proud of my father since he's doing goodwill. YOU DONT KNOW THE OTHER SIDE OF THE STORY.

hey daddy, why not you ask those charities to support you when you're old and penniless?

why does my father always make me feel so unwanted when he asks his sister (my aunt) to pay my expenses and my school fees? just today my aunt tells me that she wont be allowing me to go australia, even though she has been promising me all year and pestering me to consider going. i feel as if i were the stupid ass rabbit, while she dangles a carrot right before me. why?? coz she's getting a new car.

oh wow! talk about instilling values of saving and scrimping!

WHAT HYPOCRITES.

i hate to be MANIPULATED like that and now i am feeling extremely bitter. dont even talk to me about this topic. i dont care if you think so highly of yourself, but i will probably bite back. dont go whining that i have been fierce, or cold or difficult to understand or whatever. take your preaching elsewhere.

i am sooo bitter that i am considering going for a sterilization operation. i will not bear any grandchildren for them since i know i will not have their support in bringing up my offsprings.

i am soooo angry i checked the cancer foundation website and almost registed to shave my head bald. the only thing that was stopping me is the 500word essay why i want to shave my head.

why i ask myself? what if they reject me coz i am doing this out of spite?
"hey daddy! i shave my head bald because i want to be like you and donate to the charities! whooppee arent you just PROUD of me?!"

who want to shave bald with me? guys also can!

oh. and today the maid found out that i was the older sister. wow.. it really isnt apparent!!