j a n e t

i talked to D today and asked about his feelings about bringing me to church.

i always thought he brought me out of pressure from leaders and messages about evangelism and being burdened etc. coz he wasnt really close to me when we were in sec2. but it was his errrr constant smses and long ones at that, which made me accept his invitation to church.

but nope, it wasnt out of pressure that he did what he did.
he said, for me i just want to share what he saw lorh.

i guess that's the difference between the real evangelist and the stressed out one whose msn nick is "can you pretend to be a backslider".

i dont want to bring people coz i have to. even to the point of stagnation, it feels like so. i want to genuinely want to share. birthed out of the confidence of His goodness. :(

how can i remind myself to be like the one who brought me to church.