j a n e t

hahaha it may seem like a joke BUT

http://janetpteltd.blogspot.com is updated!

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finished wednesday-due project and now for the friday-due one. -horrors-

2000 words?!?! save meeeeee......

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my dad and i hate each other. he recently started using words like "stupid" and "shut up" against me. my mum's not the only victim anymore. now, i'm also one of those whom he disrespects and spares no consideration about their feelings, which makes me soo angry i could tear on the spot.

am super sensitive to words like stupid nowadays.

i want to leave my house as soon as possible and stay as far from him as possible.

maybe it's him. but maybe it's the scorpions people whom i should avoid this month.

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i swear not to go out with JT and any other girls anymore. it has come to my revelation that most of the time, my girlfriends tend to side JT and i tend to feel like a bully. JT's charms are too strong for any girl to bear.

take for example the time with weini and hokkien mee. it had taogeys in it but i threw a fuss over it containing taogeys coz i specifically and repeatedly told him i dislike taogeys. and JT forgot and i got both of them pissed.

"just a little taogey eat already also nevermind what.. you cant taste anything want..."

also regarding the chocolates on Vday, it's not that i don't like chocolates, i was just saying that i dislike chocolates for my birthday and do not appreciate those expensive chocolates as much Jamie does.

"you stupid ah you, very expensive chocolates you dont want to eat..."
"ya stupid leh.. eat lah..."

so yeah to me, it became that my turning down of JT's generousity and grace meant that i was very ungrateful and unappreciative of his efforts for my bday.

i do appreciate that he remembered my bday and went through the efforts of getting chocolates, but for me, it is like buying me the world's most expensive photo frame or the rarest soft toy ever existed--i just cant appreciate it, and will be unable to hide my discontent. i just cant force myself to like Royce chocolates especially when i never heard of the brand before, and that it doesnt taste as fantastic as its price tag claims.

SO, JT is nice to me and i will forever appreciate that he picked out all the taogeys for me and offered to buy me topshop vouchers for my bday (haha!) but i will not seek his company any time soon. everybody has an infatuation with him, which i totally understand why, and i dont want to get in his way and make myself feel redundant later.

edit: i think my friends are too nice to me. it makes the feeling of being angry spent much in vain. -_-