saw fiona xie and chen liping at mediacorp staff canteen today! they do look as gorgeous as they do on screen.
screwed up my PTC (person to camera) today.
:( felt rather gloomy and emo. even more so coz i feel that i dont have any real friends friend in school to pour out my sorrows to--would they look down on me or would they think im a big complain queen or attention seeker? sometimes i wish i can be a loner and not feel so conscious about myself. i wish i can be independent and void of the need to socialise. i wish i can not worry about every single cent. and i'm also stressed coz it's not easy to do well in my course. then worried coz i dont know really if mass comm is what i want in life-- the hecticness and the competitiveness of it all. i've seen a glimpse of it when i got to see the fiming of a 4.00pm CNA news, frankly, i cant picture myself being anywhere as good as the players in the scene.
the lecturer left a few words before parting with us. he said that after we graduate we may find ourselves getting rejected from interviews because of our backgroundof coming from private schools. i'm feeling sad for myself in advance. sometimes i wish for the day to exclaim that being in a private school doesnt affect me at all, and that private school students can be as good as university students. some of my friends are, some arent. most of the time, i feel like i aint as good as them uni students.
ON THE BRIGHT SIDE....
im glad to meet jamie for dinner. :) even though i was feelin so depressed i didnt feel like meeting anyone, and i think it was coz she had no dinner, so i had a jamie-therapie session HAHA.
seriously sometimes i wonder how am i ever going to do without her in my life! we always end up in similar situations.. like sec 2, we were 1.57m tall, pretty chestless THEN and had near birthdays. sec 3 and 4, we were bonded coz we had church together! which really made a huge difference to our friendship. then we had boyfriends about the same time who were like jurong classmates+ soccer kakis as well. and we all went to church together!! also, even though we were in different classes, jamie took art even though she didnt like it as much i do haha, so yay!
j1 and j2 was pretty shaky i guess! we found our own set of friends, and pretty much didnt see each other as often. the years went in a blur, come to think of it. AH! haha then we found out we signed up for the SAME chemistry class under charlie chan with our own friends.
then we both couldnt get into our choice universities and struggled with our newfound spending power and compared jobs, went on many major shopping sprees, shared our love for korean dramas and gossip girl and fashion and reading in the libraries and cineleisure korean food. and now street jazz lessons!
yeah i am as glad as you are that we had that quarrel. :)
haha!!! MAY WE HAVE BABIES AT THE SAME TIME as well!
to quote what jamie said, "hubby, let's do it now coz janet's doing it!!"
k thats a very abrupt ending coz i feel like one now.
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