j a n e t

i dreamt of
1. getting full marks for my PR test
2. helping wl pay for this $100+ bread
3. my dog peeing on my bed

my dreams are so weird! and you know why i had so many dreams! i slept almost 12 hours AND i never touched my computer the whole day yesterday! isnt that amazing.

ok the truth about the exam is... i will not do well for it coz i mistook some stuff i memorized wrongly and i couldnt recall the "research" bit and the model for the publics of public relations. basically the exam tested much on the regurgitation of points, which last minute cramming is not good at all.

i went for service with a heavy heart. i was disappointed coz it was like memorizing, and you dont need like talents like knowing how to *crap* etc. you just need alot of time and memorizing power in order to score for the exam.

then, people like carlo, stella etc left the exam hall 2 hours into the paper? like what..... they finish the paper so fast!!! :( i left at 5.00pm and there were like 1/4 left in the class still. the rest left before time's up.

reflecting upon this, i felt quite upset coz i seemed to not learn my mistake from JC screwup. im angry at myself for being so prideful and studying last minute and at my lack of self-control and not prioritising my time.

i dont want to be the girl forever caught in the past saying where did the janet of the past go? where did the clever janet go? NO! i am still janet and no one has stolen my brains or anything! i will not give up.