j a n e t

took some photos today of the view outside my hdb flat kitchen window. the sky's beautiful. i find them quite artistic! out of the 4 shots i took, 3 shots looked good. bwahaha.


then watched 881 with my aunt.

so many uncles and aunties were there! and the cinema stinks of yellow mee, and axe oil. sigh.
my aunt who paid for the outing. im so super broke!!
i tithed. but i never gave my mum a single cent. how?? it's weird.
went crazy shopping yesterday. bought a $45 skirt i regret alot now.

i feel like closing my blog. or making it private. i have no wish to let people read about my life, to judge me, or for me to gain sympathy or anything.

it feels like a competition really. and i feel disgusted with myself.

im not a public persona. i try not to care about what people think of me. but i hate it if people thinks that im one lousy person or one lousy friend. it hurts to hear people say nevermind la, got better friends outside, can make new friends.

it's so easy for you to say.

know what, you have just incurred janet's wrath.
laugh all you like, mock as much as you want. in the end, i wont find it funny. and then you'll sulk and say im unreasonable and unfair etc.

stupid people say stupid things. and suffer the consequences.


!!!!!!!rah i am the bitch.